Spoonful Of Self-Awareness Part IX

Since I had revealed and healed many of my own past anchors from my individual choices, the ones with heavy investment in our future began to honeypot Johny and tried to steer him away from our healing work as if they would invest in his skateboarding, not Become Legend Not Trend, but in the sale of strictly skateboards, which Johny had previously manufactured and designed in Florida and Los Angeles prior to our meeting. It was easy for those seeking power or personal gain over us to manipulate his energy since there was still so much left to reveal. During that time he was like the Walmart greeter, just letting all the demons walk into our relationship, store, home, and future plans. This heavy desire for others approval and need for their attention resulted from his unhealthy life with his grandmother, mother, aunts, and uncles, in which the example was continually set to have no morals, no regard for other's emotions, a complete disregard for what is right and wrong, and a very vile normalcy of cheating, lying, stealing, prostitution, and manipulation.

As a result of these energies, he took terribly cruel actions towards me during the beginning of our relationship, actions which he suppressed, locked away, and was self-convinced were never needed to be revealed. In doing this, his cells were anchored into a very low level of consciousness, allowing other energies of similar nature to enter the heaven I had worked so hard to maintain through self-discipline, heavy determination, and constant awareness of the broader picture. When we mixed and blended our RNA and DNA, he was able to affect my systems in a very profound way, expanding the chromosomes of our x and y chromosomes, the children! Having access to my ovaries, my water element, and all elements of my body, he had a complete connection. As with many others, I was constantly abused for my willingness to forgive, see the bigger picture, and express my raw emotions. Throughout all of these relationships, I have learned to stand up for myself, to know when to engage someone and when to avoid engaging them and to recognize when someone wants/needs my attention solely for their own interests.

As he on a grander scale is merely reflecting the underlying components of myself, and my lineage, the healing is a personal experience. When we collect pieces of ourselves, we weave them together over the course of our lives, and the connection of all the dots from our individual experiences, to that of our divine counterpart, will tie back to the beginning of time and the very early relationships between the feminine and masculine principles. Not only will your mind be blown, but your heart will open, your emotions will begin to flow properly, and your actions will begin to align with your most cherished purposes and passions. By shifting your focus and perspective to that of universal truth, source, and substance, you will start to FEEL an ignition of the pilot light in you as you take on the role of Captain and begin to steer your own course, manage your own crew, and sail to the highest seas. In the course of my business growing and showing apparent signs of success, my father did not once mention helping/assisting/investing in me. Within weeks of reversing my health, I began to offer PEMF treatments I was studying and receiving, and it was evident he desired to capitalize on my health improvement. No fatherly love was evident.

At the age of 25, I sought his assistance because my health was failing. My mother battled mental health issues, and a toxic work environment. In addition, she attempted to provide the most comprehensive care possible while she dealt with a second divorce from an alcoholic cheater. In the eyes of my father, everything and everyone is a stock, and he will be the one to determine if you are a "wise" investment. It didn't take long before I realized everyone wanted to partake in the pie I was baking without any Om-work to align them in my dimension and playing field, including Johny. In the early stages of his plans to move from Los Angeles, I had many suspicions, red flags, and intuitive nudges about him. As he claimed to be working on expanding BLNT, his skate company, I was unsure what he was actually doing in Los Angeles. In fact, that is precisely what he was destined to do as I continued to lead Sage and Center prior to their merger into Accepting the Divine, our co-created business which combined our offerings into a platform for conscious living. I knew that he was my other half from my bones, blood, and being and yet it still came with baggage; rather, it was the divine union that stripped away what was unreal, false, and based on fear, as we mirrored each other at a cellular level; he was my counterpart.

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Spoonful Of Self-Awareness Part VIII

Accordingly, out of all the contributing factors, the carbon monoxide incident resulted in the most traumatic series of events. There was little or no communication from any family member in the wake of the tragic events. We were not shown any respect or acknowledgement for what we had just experienced. During our most vulnerable time, our own siblings and parents have completely turned on us. As a consequence, we were forced to question their relationship with us, their motives, and what investment they had in our lives. Clearly, their silence revealed a guilty conscience that sought to evade the responsibility that comes with being a soul family.

We would approach situations or individuals as I got closer to finding truths through channelling and heavy hypnosis. Several parties lied to us repeatedly in order to conceal their ill intentions and motives. As a result of the lies, we entered a fake reality in which the accident was able to occur. As we dropped out of our dimension, we entered their very horrible hell. I did my best to bob and weave between what was real and what was fake all while creating + carrying our second child. So much time and effort have been expended on blocking the information I was sharing. . Many ran away from what they KNOW they did. They were individuals we gave rooms to, took into our home, and stopped offering our sessions to the public to focus on helping the family during a difficult time. Many of them were suffering from cancer, mental illness, etc. Many people hide in their self-convincing fake reality to avoid being confronted by the truth and destroying their façades. The idea that avoiding or lying about any topic will keep you more secure and safe is an illusion. It is extremely harmful and detrimental to your own well-being and that of others.

We are gradually shedding the veils and smoke that have obscured our awareness of the sneaky, suffocating infiltration of our air. Throughout our childhood, our parents and their siblings displayed a very vile sense of arrogance, believing that they were better than others. They put on a mask of caring for others while pursuing personal gain and feeding off the collective. They lost all sense of self, respect, or genuine concern for the greater good. My mother is the only individual to demonstrate true unconditional love through the process of taking responsibility, healing her upbringing, and accepting her past choices. Every experience is projected from within, so the general understanding and knowledge were that, by default, the experiences we attracted came from within our twin flame union. If you possess a sense of self-management and have no unresolved energies within that attract outside forces, nothing can control you. Johny was under increasing pressure to be in the spotlight and reveal all of his past grievances.

Due to his upbringing of being programmed to lie as a child and being told this was necessary for his survival, overcoming his adverse upbringing was quite challenging for him. As a young boy, a series of destructive patterns and habits were formed, and these actions solidified his false beliefs about normalcy, love, discipline, and general life. As I was, he was brought up at a very low level of consciousness. His Colombian roots, rooted in hopelessness, and American upbringing, rooted in arrogance and entitlement, along with his addiction to fame, drove him so far from the man that he was meant to be. I have been deeply influenced by the Saskatchewan region of Canada, which in many ways is stuck in the old ways, ignorant, as well as being extremely passive-aggressive. Societal norms contribute greatly to our imbalances as we accept incomplete, backward, and harmful ideas about human experiences. Through the experience of this journey and those who have shown themselves by their actions, it is apparent that my mother's willingness and desire to truly experience motherhood was the drive that led to my ability to stand up for myself and my family as a whole in the breaking of unhealthy family patterns and ancestral trauma.

The parallels we began to draw between my upbringing and Johny's were astounding. A new revelation emerged regarding what a soul family is, the connection with our soulmates, the collection of fragments of our souls/cells, and the overall mission of healing the hole in original consciousness that prevents light and dark, electromagnetic energies from cocreating and healing in a conscious union.

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