Ep 39 - Peter Pan's Narcissism Rehab Series - The Practicum

Peter Pans Narcissism Rehab #5 - The Practicum

In this fifth episode of Peter Pan’s Narcissism Rehab Series, I will explore the practicum and the emotional tug-of-war between genuine and false feelings that are part of the rehabilitation process. I aim to break down the imbalances and enhance understanding for both narcissists and empaths. The goal is to offer insights into this pervasive imbalance, facilitating healing for everyone, regardless of which side of the issue they are on.

Acknowledging my vulnerabilities and accepting the significant imbalances created by my narcissism has been a challenging journey. For me personally, the most difficult part has been staying consistent in this process and not succumbing to the reactive comfort zones established by my childhood trauma. These patterns include deleting, altering, or completely avoiding experiencing genuine emotions in order to avoid feeling vulnerable.

The recognition that there is narcissistic programming and traits that we all have within our cellular memory regardless of what you have and/or haven’t done this lifetime is essential! This awareness takes any victim mentality out and allows us all to healthily take responsibility for its presence in our lives period. This awareness also gives us back our power to shift and change what is needed because once you own it…. It’s yours to do as you wish with it! 

Until next time,

J 

Ep 38 - Peter Pan's Narcissism Rehab Series - "It's my world and you're just living in it"

In this episode of Peter Pan's Narcissism Rehab, I was guided to discuss the basics of energy and it’s direct relationship with this planet’s narcissism pan-demic.

This included breaking down masculine + feminine energy, the elements and their direct connection to our systems, and the fundamental laws of energy. Understanding these building blocks of the universe helps us re-member and reconnect with our naturally solid and stable ground, where we can stand firmly and apply this formula to heal anything and everything – specifically, in this case, narcissism.

Narcissism can be understood as an internal imbalance, and can be rectified as such when understanding how we are meant to function as hue-mans. This means releasing all unhealthy/false beliefs about victimization, separation, competition, self worth, etc.

I share the ways that I can recognize the parts of myself that have been rejecting and even manifesting obstacles for me to not be able to share this journey, take responsibility, and most importantly help others break free from this societally supported imbalance.

As we come out of this toxic idea of being in a “man’s” world, we can collectively heal the toxic masculinity within us all and the severe damage it has caused our collective feminine energy. The rewriting of our internal structure will by default shift all external projections and manifestations. This is the ultimate realization we all get to have during these evolutionary periods of reawakening that our species is currently going through.

As above, so below, and so it shall be!

Until next time,

-JA

Ep 37 - Baring It All Series - The Pasta to Heal the Past

Resuscitating ourcellves in this next episode, working through the stalemate’s, the can not’s and will not’s — the vile files the particles of ourcellves we’ve rejected, distorted, and drove insane…making sense of the self.

Join me for some giggles, real-talk, rambles, another cord cutting ritual for your cells —-unwind your mind witch* moi,

S

Ep 36 - Peter Pan's Narcissism Rehab: His-Story

On this episode of Peter Pan’s Narcissism Rehab, I begin by addressing our last name shifts and my healing around it and recognizing deep historical traumas and the horrid patterns that have derived from them, contributing greatly to the development of modern narcissism. 

Organized religion and its horrendous beginnings have caused deep-rooted shame, guilt, resentment, fear, self-rejection, and disharmony within our cellular memory. Regardless of how you were currently raised in this lifetime, the wrath of forced conversion on a mass scale has left oceans of unhealed wounds and skewed beliefs that have been passed down for many generations. 

As I delve into my lineages and dig up the information within my Cellular memories I can further understand the choices that were made both balanced and imbalanced ones. This ultimate truth helps bring closure and healing to the wounds left through time and his-story. Making the choice to be the cycle breaker and to heal these wounds has been more trivial to me than I would've ever imagined and honestly, it just goes to show me how crucial this is for the overall health and well being of my Cellves + my family.

J

Ep 35 - Peter Pan's Narcissism Rehab Series: Self/Cell Awareness

In this second episode of Peter Pan’s Narcissism Rehab I speak candidly about my journey toward self-awareness and the importance of addressing the narcissist within us all. As this is my first recorded episode in a long time, I feel it's essential to begin by addressing the men who have been emotionally crippled by societal and familial norms.

This episode specifically focuses on men and the expectations surrounding their behavior, appearance, and emotions. Choosing to break free from these cycles is no easy feat. Although my partner, Stacey, has had to literally baby me throughout this process, it has still been a more daunting task than I ever imagined.

I discuss the weight of cellular memory, subconscious belief systems, and the ingrained cycles of our lineages. This is just the first layer we'll explore as we delve into the human psyche and the rehabilitation we must all undergo to overcome our species' traumatic history.

The journey to becoming our most authentic selves is highly transformative and requires a willingness to embrace discomfort, change, and truth. As I navigate my own human insecurities, nerves, anxiety, and disconnection, I recognize the traits that get triggered within me.

Instead of editing out these traits, I've left them in as a vulnerability and accountability checkpoint for myself. The insecure patterns, such as filler words like “you know”, or “erhh”, are intentionally left in to document the growth and authentic feelings trough these healing actions.

The road to recovery from narcissism is uncomfortable, but it's a necessary step toward maturity and self-awareness.

-JA

Ep 34 - Baring It All Series - Perspective, Personas, and Pursuits

In this personalized series we enter episode six, we continue to swim into the realm of our inner world, where our perceptions shape reality. We explore the concept of taking responsibility for our projectIONS, recognizing the immense power that resides with inside ourcellves!

By gaining further insight into our own ancestry, nature, psyche, behaviour, minds, one can begin to understand how our beliefs, ideas, thoughts, emotions, and actions influence our experiences. This awareness empowers us to reclaim our authority, letting go of limitations and embracing our true potential.

I'll guide you through a powerful but simple energetic practice, teaching you the art of cord-cutting.
******it might make you wonder why we haven’t been taught how to tend to our energetic body before!

This ancient technique will empower you to:
Manage and maintain healthy relationships with yourcellves and others
Release toxic connections and emotional baggage
Reclaim your energy and autonomy

Just as we prioritize oral and daily hygiene, our energetic body also requires regular cleansing! Think of it as a spiritual shower: washing away stagnant energy, emotional residue, and mental clutter. By tending to our energetic hygiene, we can:

Boost vitality and resilience
Enhance mental clarity and focus
Cultivate a deeper connection to our cells and the world around us
Let's make energetic cleansing the focus of our self-care lifestyle this month!

Snuggle up as we venture into the broader picture of self-awareness and personal responsibility,

S

*recorded March 18, 2025

Ep 33 - Peter Pan’s Narcissism Rehab series: Intro

This episode is a candid and vulnerable conversation recorded months ago where I share the struggles I've faced over the past 8 to 9 years, including the traumas and events that have arisen from my tendency to run away, severe avoidance, and narcissistic traits.

In this series I take a step back and acknowledge the narcissistic traits and tendencies that I have embodied, and the detrimental impact my actions (and lack thereof) have had on myself and my loved ones.

This episode was ORIGINALLY intended to be released back in 2017 when we began podcasting! I was meant to take a deep dive into my whole-hearted healing journey, but instead in my self CONvinced pride, I started to become a fake version of Stacey, as a result, I attracted others who echoed this disingenuous copycat persona. My underlying jealousy and competition with everyone made me reluctant to share the spotlight and was obsessed with any attention. These traits were disastrous, to the extent of discrediting and placing undeserving doubt on Stacey’s highly accurate and trained intuition, which ultimately led to the dreadful carbon monoxide poisoning of our family and the loss of one of our babies life.

The level at which I needed to be needed because of a subconscious sponsoring belief of worthlessness deep within my system, ultimately leading me to drain at her health, life, and wealth, is frightening. Even though I recognized the negative patterns I was repeating—patterns rooted in the survival mode I developed during childhood—I found it nearly impossible to break free from these cycles because of my lack of willingness to feel my truths. Why are we narcissists such a-holes? Because we never expand out of our own a-hole. Period. Cell-centred, all about us, duality MENtality.

Years passed as attempts were made to regain balance in Stacey's business, health, and personal growth. Eventually it got so bad that she even considered separating from me. Yet years went on, and with the neurological effects from carbon monoxide poisoning compounding my imbalance, I continued to self-sabotage. I took advantage of the energy of both my partner and her mother, manipulating the narrative to shield myself from deeper feelings and redirect trauma onto the two women who supported me the most. This perpetuated unhealthy cycles of giving their best to undeserving men in their lives.

With a spirit of resilience, Stacey maintained faith in our journey, our soul connection and my potential, occasionally seeing glimpses of my higher self before I slipped back into harmful mental patterns. Yes, this is a classic case of narcissistic tendencies.

It's been a long drawn-out road but I’m feeling confidently ready to address + heal the narcissist in me and help the rest of our very neglected, abandoned, traumatized, disabled, dysfunctional, entitled, competitive, and emotionally crippled culture. I realize it is part of my soul's calling to overcome this insidious cancer that lives off of gaslighting, disconnecting, distracting, and blaming everything/everyone except its own creator Cellves.

All hail the empath in us all! It is time to alchemize the narcissist. May we finally feel the weight of the actions and reactions that have traumatized our own cells and so many others often trying to get them to shut off + down just like we did to our pure sensitivities. Due to my own reactive and unhealed shadows, Stacey has once again taken it upon herself to rectify the backlash and hold space for me during my internal storms + battles. 

I'm deeply grateful for Stacey's unwavering support and so proud of the incredible woman she's continued to become despite the challenges my unhealed shadows + life have thrown her way.

That said, I also owe an immense apology to my angel son Pax, my children, Iona, and the collective. I’ve been a key player in causing significant pain and hardship to this goddess who simply strives to help those suffering, struggling, and trying to make sense of life, energy, and their Cellves.

I chose to use this snippet as the intro to this series because it will also help show the transformation that has been taking place, from my vocabulary, tone, filler ticks like “you know” and the mannerisms that will make sense as the series continues.

Thanks for tuning in,

-J

EP 32 - Baring It All Series - Shifting Gears Into the 5D

Baring It All Series: Shifting Gears into 5D

Welcome to the fifth episode of the Baring It All Series. In this self-healing session, we're exploring the concept of shifting gears into 5D. Imagine being able to navigate the dimensional planes like a vehicle shifting gears. We're designed to be 5th-dimensional human beings, accessing all 12 dimensions and co-creating our reality.

The 5 States of Consciousness

We have five different states in which we get to shift in and out of. Giving, Receiving, Rest, Restoration, and Transcending. From the cell-centered infant to the super curious child, to the self-aware adult, we're meant to cruise up and down the dimensional plane, collecting pieces of our cells along the way. Due to severe imbalances within our organism most are stuck in fight, flight, freeze, fawn, and forget**.

Breaking Free from Limitations

Unfortunately, our Western culture is stuck in cell-centered and stressed-out states, unaware of what we're truly experiencing and why. The curious child within us has been lied to, given false information, and conditioned with imbalanced beliefs and habits passed down from our ancestry.

Human Evolution: From 1D to 5D In this stage of consciousness, we're evolving into 5th-dimensional living, transcending the:

- Reptilian/1D: Instinctual, survival-based consciousness

- Mammalian/2D: Emotional, tribal consciousness

- Primitive/3D: Ego-based, individualized consciousness

- Homosapien/4D: Rational, logical consciousness

As we ascend into the 5th dimension, we're entering a celestial, cosmic state, tuning into higher frequencies and dimensions:

- 6th dimension: Template for manifestation - 7th dimension: Spiritual awakening, connection to the divine - 8th dimension: Harmonization of opposites, unity consciousness - 9th dimension: Access to ancient wisdom, collective unconscious - 10th dimension: Multidimensional awareness, parallel universes - 11th dimension: Cosmic consciousness, unity with the universe - 12th dimension: Transcendence, pure awareness

Accessing Higher Dimensions

We can access these higher dimensions through various techniques, including:

- Sleep and lucid dreaming
- Meditation and mindfulness
- Channeling and mediumship
- Hypnosis and trance states
- Yoga and energy practices

Integrating the Brain and Nervous System

It's time to take back control of our lives and our reality. We'll explore the left and right hemispheres of the brain and work towards integrating all aspects of our being. Neocortical regulation and nervous system regulation are key to breaking free from false information and finding our true course.

Join the Journey

As always, I invite you to grow with me and get to know yourself on a deeper level. Remember, vulnerability is strength, and together, we can rise into our true potential.

S

EP 31 - Baring It All Series - Beyond The Facade

Episode 4 of Baring it All Series

In this fourth experience/episode, I continue to swim in the deep end, exploring the narcissistic culture and world we live in, exposing its limitations in views, ideas, thinking, feeling, and acting. We'll explore the complexities of human behavior, uncovering why we do what we do.

Delving into the reptilian and mammalian parts of the brain, we'll examine our cells, families, habits, hobbies, purposes, health, cycles, patterns, and more. You'll witness the growth, willingness, and vulnerability in my household as we navigate this self-healing challenge, part of my soul fragment retrieval journey.

As I share my process on this platform, which of course is going to be very triggering in all the needed ways — I'm shifting my channel from a drip, drip, drip ( my scarred, traumatized, insecure girl ) to more of a flow ( my highest educated self ) cleansing and clearing my inner rivers, lakes, and oceans. Getting my energies in motion aka E-MOTION. Reading in between all the lines, breaking down a life in vibration.

The rate at which our ideas, thoughts, feelings, and actions flow reflects our self-worth, time, and true financial abundance. Any wealth built on illusions will only distance us from reality. Time, money, and self-worth are all intertwined as vibrations, values, and frequencies. The dollar amount is superficial; the energetic value is what truly matters. Our narcissistic culture has programmed us to devalue authenticity and assign worth to the superficial.

It's time to get back our life, activate our cells, transcend the limitations, and harmonize our energies. Join in as I work through brain damage, complex trauma, extreme betrayal, deep-seated depression, grief, death, and severe loss towards creating a more intelligent, balanced version of my cells, family, collective, and world. I'll take us all into a self-healing experience with a guided coaching session, where you'll learn to collect yourself, activate your cells, take back your power, and start regulating your nervous system. Discover a deeper sense of wholeness and empowerment.

S

EP30 - Baring It All Series - A Full Circle Moment

Episode 3: A Full Circle Moment

Episode three arrived unexpectedly, bridging the gaps and broadening our view on narcissistic culture and cell-centered living. Hello, full circle! The kids and Johny prevailed! Join me for a quick chat and channel on how to human with humour.

S

Ep29 - Baring It All Series - Connecting the Dots

Baring it all Series: Connecting the Dots Episode 2

Join me on another unscripted and vulnerable healing journey as I weave together my spirit, brain, heart, body, and soul with a decade's worth of life coaching knowledge and personal insights. In this episode, I'll be sharing my own healing journey through channeling, tying together cognition, vulnerability, and real-world experiences.

Get ready for an unfiltered, unscripted, spontaneous look at life's challenges and triumphs! Chy brings his “adorable energy” aka a chorus was song while learning to eat, J navigates parenting challenges as he works to break cycles and old parenting habits, especially as I stir up the energy in the house, and I guide you through a soothing meditation to wrap it all up and balance out the nervous system!

From chaos to clarity, peace to excitement, we're breaking it down and making sense of it all. This series is more than just a sharing of my story - it's a profound healing for my entire being. Speaking my truth and expressing myself had become second nature as I re-sensitized my cells and gained clarity on my identity. The weight of lies, abuse, and manipulation by those I trusted over the last few years has taken its toll, but this series marks a monumental reclaiming of my voice.

Imagine Ariel freeing Prince Eric from Ursula's spell and reclaiming her power, identity, and voice. That's exactly how I feel. I've had numerous individuals I trusted - mentors, helpers, and others - steal my voice, mimic me, share my stories, and take credit for the lessons I've channeled, all while lying about me and my family.

The narcissistic culture has exploited empaths like me, but I know we all must heal both our empathic and narcissistic tendencies. We all have roles to play and purposes to fulfill - no blame, just balance.

By being my authentic self, sharing my guided truth, and letting go of overthinking, I'm reclaiming my voice and healing my scared, scarred cells. Do I feel anxious before I start recording, absolutely (does that even make my old self laugh with slight shock because it’s hard to imagine how quickly things change until it happens and we’ve allowed it to be out of our management or awareness), something that happened so casually now causes chaos! We call it a reality check haha How the mighty have fallen feeling. My educated empath is now schooling my inner narcissist, and I'm recognizing on a much larger scale that we all have this gap to heal in our human behaviour. It's time to acknowledge and bridge this divide within ourCellves, rather than pointing fingers outward.

By taking ownership of our own healing, we can transform and integrate our fragmented selves. The empath and narcissist within us are not mutually exclusive, but rather, interconnected aspects of our bipolar duality human experience requiring awareness, healing, maturing, balancing, and evolving.

Let's dive in,

S 🧜‍♀️🐬🌊

*recorded on the cancer full moon*

EP28 - Baring It All: Live & Unfiltered

Baring it All: Live & Unfiltered

Join Stacey for a live episode where we strip away the fluff and get real about life.

In this intimate and interactive sesh, we'll dive into the new year forecast, exploring the energies, collective consciousness, and how it all affects our daily grind.

Expect:

Real talk, honest discussions, and a dash of sauce

Raw emotions, vulnerable storytelling, and Stacey being Stacey 🙃

Psychology-infused insights to upgrade your mindset

Tune in for:

A peek into the new year's energies and how to harness them

Insights into the collective consciousness and its impact on our lives

Personal anecdotes, transformation stories, and a healthy dose of humor

Get ready for a unscripted, unedited, unfiltered, and utterly real conversation with all of Stacey’s cells!

EP27 - Libra Season + Autumn Forecast and Self-Care Guide

NAMASTE + HOLA,

I'm excited to share our journey with you, but first, I want to acknowledge the challenges we've faced since 2017. Johny, can you offer some insight into why our progress has been hindered? Johny: Yes. We've experienced significant internal ups and downs, creating hurdles that have stalled our momentum. I've struggled to release attachments to outdated beliefs and ideas rooted in my past. When I joined forces with Stacey, my business limb was built on a persona I created to cope with my experiences. After being kidnapped from Colombia and relocated to America, I faced bullying and felt pressured to conceal my foreign identity. This led to a deep-seated belief that I didn't deserve to exist. As we merge our businesses and lives, I've grappled with shedding this false energy. It's a constant process, unraveling layers of programming and self-doubt. Unfortunately, this has caused setbacks in our collaborative efforts.

Stacey: Exactly. Our business, my "baby," was established before Johny joined. However, his struggles with self-worth and identity have led to inconsistent engagement, sabotaging our progress. But I know as the life coach that Johny's journey reflects the masculine principle within all beings, regardless of gender. This energy represents how we give of ourselves, often unconsciously driven by societal expectations and generational trauma. Through our partnership, I've seen how unhealthy beliefs about ourselves, our nature, and our cellular makeup affect our well-being. If we don't address these patterns, they'll continue to impact our relationships, businesses, and collective growth. By facing these shadows together, we're breaking free from harmful cycles and rebirthing our true selves.

What makes our journey genuine and real is that we practice what we preach, moment to moment. We know that breaking free from ancestral, generational, parental, and societal patterns isn't easy. We're committed to navigating the heavy upheaval, tantrums, and arguments that come with it. This chaos signifies healing is happening. Our goal is to ignite the desire for true growth, helping you prioritize healthier needs over false or unhealthy wants. By embracing our vulnerabilities and imperfections, we create a safe space for authentic transformation. Join us as we shed light on the path to self-awareness, self-care, and liberation from harmful cycles with this Libra Season Podcast!

The Rey Acosta’s