Spoonful Of Self-Awareness Part VIII
Accordingly, out of all the contributing factors, the carbon monoxide incident resulted in the most traumatic series of events. There was little or no communication from any family member in the wake of the tragic events. We were not shown any respect or acknowledgement for what we had just experienced. During our most vulnerable time, our own siblings and parents have completely turned on us. As a consequence, we were forced to question their relationship with us, their motives, and what investment they had in our lives. Clearly, their silence revealed a guilty conscience that sought to evade the responsibility that comes with being a soul family.
We would approach situations or individuals as I got closer to finding truths through channelling and heavy hypnosis. Several parties lied to us repeatedly in order to conceal their ill intentions and motives. As a result of the lies, we entered a fake reality in which the accident was able to occur. As we dropped out of our dimension, we entered their very horrible hell. I did my best to bob and weave between what was real and what was fake all while creating + carrying our second child. So much time and effort have been expended on blocking the information I was sharing. . Many ran away from what they KNOW they did. They were individuals we gave rooms to, took into our home, and stopped offering our sessions to the public to focus on helping the family during a difficult time. Many of them were suffering from cancer, mental illness, etc. Many people hide in their self-convincing fake reality to avoid being confronted by the truth and destroying their façades. The idea that avoiding or lying about any topic will keep you more secure and safe is an illusion. It is extremely harmful and detrimental to your own well-being and that of others.
We are gradually shedding the veils and smoke that have obscured our awareness of the sneaky, suffocating infiltration of our air. Throughout our childhood, our parents and their siblings displayed a very vile sense of arrogance, believing that they were better than others. They put on a mask of caring for others while pursuing personal gain and feeding off the collective. They lost all sense of self, respect, or genuine concern for the greater good. My mother is the only individual to demonstrate true unconditional love through the process of taking responsibility, healing her upbringing, and accepting her past choices. Every experience is projected from within, so the general understanding and knowledge were that, by default, the experiences we attracted came from within our twin flame union. If you possess a sense of self-management and have no unresolved energies within that attract outside forces, nothing can control you. Johny was under increasing pressure to be in the spotlight and reveal all of his past grievances.
Due to his upbringing of being programmed to lie as a child and being told this was necessary for his survival, overcoming his adverse upbringing was quite challenging for him. As a young boy, a series of destructive patterns and habits were formed, and these actions solidified his false beliefs about normalcy, love, discipline, and general life. As I was, he was brought up at a very low level of consciousness. His Colombian roots, rooted in hopelessness, and American upbringing, rooted in arrogance and entitlement, along with his addiction to fame, drove him so far from the man that he was meant to be. I have been deeply influenced by the Saskatchewan region of Canada, which in many ways is stuck in the old ways, ignorant, as well as being extremely passive-aggressive. Societal norms contribute greatly to our imbalances as we accept incomplete, backward, and harmful ideas about human experiences. Through the experience of this journey and those who have shown themselves by their actions, it is apparent that my mother's willingness and desire to truly experience motherhood was the drive that led to my ability to stand up for myself and my family as a whole in the breaking of unhealthy family patterns and ancestral trauma.
The parallels we began to draw between my upbringing and Johny's were astounding. A new revelation emerged regarding what a soul family is, the connection with our soulmates, the collection of fragments of our souls/cells, and the overall mission of healing the hole in original consciousness that prevents light and dark, electromagnetic energies from cocreating and healing in a conscious union.
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