Air-is pt V
My upbringing as an only child has proved to be more detrimental in the long run than beneficial. My extremely juvenile egocentrism never got corrected as it would have if siblings were in the picture. Co-creation, sharing, awareness of others' feelings/emotions, being put in my place by other obvious versions of me, and putting others' needs before my own were all things I desperately needed while establishing my own personal foundation and morals. Having very similar moral ethics to my immediate family didn't help. I witnessed a great deal of self-serving behaviour, lying, cheating, stealing, and manipulating in order to avoid the obvious imbalances within myself and my family. As is the case with most relationships these days, I won't call you out on your dirt if you won't call me out on mine, and this makes us "good friends" or great people to hang out with.
Truth hurts is a statement that only exists in the reality where no one gives actual weight to their morals, true-self or others’ thus permitting them to take skewed actions and become inconsistent characters that make quite vile decisions while convincing themselves that they are still “good people”. I have been consciously healing mental imbalances that became obvious to me in early 2019, now I can look back and realize how many of these imbalances had been present most of my life. To be fair, we are all being affected by mental imbalances and can see the tall tale signs of some of the most common symptoms such as anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, panic attacks, addiction, complacency, and in my case complete emotional detachment/numbness and identification/personality disorder...