Spoonful of Self-Awareness Part IV
Nothing felt real*** keyword lasting, no sense of significance. As OG consciousness amplified its air/idea with a thought/fire and desire/water, magnetic and electric energies began to converge or, bluntly speaking, got it on. The elements grew bigger as the intention grew with fire (will) and water (want). The result was the Big Bang! During this intense process, parts of the magnetic and parts of the electric were damaged, distorted, and some were blasted far from where they originated into the void. Understanding why this happened to these pieces of the pie is the first step in understanding our own rejection, avoidance, suppression, separation, + skewing of our own elements.
In the course of time, the light and dark became increasingly aware of each other. Due to their very different aspects, confusion and fear were sparked as they were unable to comprehend each other. Feminine, electric so bright, so light, while masculine, magnetic so intense, so powerful causing hesitation. Having said that, there were undeniable forces and urges pulling these two bipolar energies together. As the electron pulls in, the matter acts in response to the ideas and thoughts of the mind, the proton is pushing out. Cause and effect, the law of attraction. The nucleus of a cell is where the spirit of the cell resides, the big O8. Think of the neutral nucleus. The spirit must be neutral in understanding and connecting to its feminine and masculine principles in order for our systems to function optimally. Electrons represent the X chromosome carrying a negative charge, while protons represent the Y chromosome carrying a positive charge. Thus the name OXYgen. Words have amazing power. We must learn how to view them as the energy behind what they are referring to in a given circumstance.
It is at this level of energetic awareness that we are able to remain in a state of neutrality, which is necessary to maintain the equilibrium of our atoms and ions. Each atom contains an equal number of protons and electrons. Due to the fact that protons and electrons have equal and opposite charges, atoms are neutral in their overall nature. However, instead of learning the other qualities and quantities, mind and matter remained in separation because the parts of the cell/atom that were damaged and dimmed during creation have not yet been reassembled and healed. Now, both halves are required to undergo their own personal journeys of learning about their elements, expanding their awareness, and becoming a whole half so that they can reconnect. We, therefore, come up with the concept of soulmates and relationships, and ultimately the adventure of finding our other half. We are on a journey of healing and connecting the four elements and their internal energies, the magnetic and electric, to oneness. The O8 represents both the feminine and the masculine elements. A force of electric and magnetic attraction exists within each element, just as there is light in dark and dark in light.
Each of the elements (fire, air, water, and earth) possesses magnetic/electric properties. These qualities of our being are exactly what we begin to falsely label, distort, and dim. We take the air out of the fire, which means we have no truth in our thinking. Water is taken from the earth, dimming the impact of our actions. This is some of the methods by which the magnetic and electric principles have been manipulated by and mutilated by one another rather than working together to share energy and balance one another. The feminine can share some of your ideas and the masculine can share some of your feelings, and together we can achieve harmony. In the event that this same understanding were to be brought to every individual, our entire societal structures would be altered. As a result, authority and control would no longer be needed, but rather management of the individual selves in connection with the collective. The only rules that matter are the laws of energy, which are the laws of matter/substance and relate to us. Almost every rule and regulation imposed by an external force is here to prevent our race and species from awakening into our own inherent power and raising the vibration of our planet and collective. The forces of nature are all that we need, and this belief - when combined with aligned action - has the power to bring anything into existence.
Due to the avoidance and arrogance that we inherited from our father, my brothers adapted his belief systems regarding women as objects, whores, and useless. In my experience, the only female my father has given importance to is his younger sister who can be an extremely manipulative, controlling individual who has invested heavily in sabotaging his own self, the family he tried to establish, his relationships, and then interfering with my relationship with my siblings and then finally my own relationship with Johny and our children. Throughout the years, she has been a dark hole in my family, envious of my mother and taking any opportunity to discredit her as a woman, mother, and wife. In choosing the fake over the real, my father has been led by his own damaged matter, disconnected from the real psyche. Through his inability to heal from his upbringing, his denial of his real family, and his ability to convince himself that his very ill actions are rational, he has allowed his own mental illness to go unhealed.