I wrote a letter to myself when I first met Johny about never losing myself again. I had unknowingly led such a disconnected life prior to my health failing. So much was confusing and did not match my feelings. Nothing made sense, lifestyles felt bland, boring, or fake. Through many harsh relationships and going throughs, I had finally met Stacey a version of her I could relate to and celebrate in 2015. I wanted to keep this version protected for so many have attacked her once she lets them in. They try to distort and twist my relationship with myself and my ideas about myself. It’s like seeing a pretty flower you love and plucking it — it doesn’t get what it needs. No air, food, or water and eventually tossed to the side as its droopy appearance is no longer pleasing to one.
If we find someone or something we love we must take care of it and give it what it needs. And humans if you see another human beautiful, killing it, rocking their shit, and you’re not entirely there yet leave them the fuck alone and get your poop together step up before trying to pluck that flower. Learn from that flower, and respect that the flower is doing some hard work to shine and shimmer like it is. My personal values prioritize building a strong and honest relationship with oneself. I believe in taking the time, energy, and necessary steps to truly understand oneself. It is important to start this process as soon as possible and to be cautious not to fall back into old habits of avoiding self-reflection, like an addict avoiding relapse. Always maintain a sense of curiosity, openness, and willingness to explore the underlying motives, values, and beliefs that shape our lives. By doing so, we can identify and transform aspects that no longer resonate with us.
Let's unlock our potential and venture into uncharted territories, leaving behind the superficiality of celebrity culture, false notions of freedom, and empty pursuits of pleasure. Instead, let's focus on genuine connections, personal growth, and meaningful experiences.
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