Spoonful Of Self-Awareness Part VIII

Spoonful Of Self-Awareness Part VIII

Accordingly, out of all the contributing factors, the carbon monoxide incident resulted in the most traumatic series of events. There was little or no communication from any family member in the wake of the tragic events. We were not shown any respect or acknowledgement for what we had just experienced. During our most vulnerable time, our own siblings and parents have completely turned on us. As a consequence, we were forced to question their relationship with us, their motives, and what investment they had in our lives. Clearly, their silence revealed a guilty conscience that sought to evade the responsibility that comes with being a soul family.

We would approach situations or individuals as I got closer to finding truths through channelling and heavy hypnosis. Several parties lied to us repeatedly in order to conceal their ill intentions and motives. As a result of the lies, we entered a fake reality in which the accident was able to occur. As we dropped out of our dimension, we entered their very horrible hell. I did my best to bob and weave between what was real and what was fake all while creating + carrying our second child. So much time and effort have been expended on blocking the information I was sharing. . Many ran away from what they KNOW they did. They were individuals we gave rooms to, took into our home, and stopped offering our sessions to the public to focus on helping the family during a difficult time. Many of them were suffering from cancer, mental illness, etc. Many people hide in their self-convincing fake reality to avoid being confronted by the truth and destroying their façades. The idea that avoiding or lying about any topic will keep you more secure and safe is an illusion. It is extremely harmful and detrimental to your own well-being and that of others.

We are gradually shedding the veils and smoke that have obscured our awareness of the sneaky, suffocating infiltration of our air. Throughout our childhood, our parents and their siblings displayed a very vile sense of arrogance, believing that they were better than others. They put on a mask of caring for others while pursuing personal gain and feeding off the collective. They lost all sense of self, respect, or genuine concern for the greater good. My mother is the only individual to demonstrate true unconditional love through the process of taking responsibility, healing her upbringing, and accepting her past choices. Every experience is projected from within, so the general understanding and knowledge were that, by default, the experiences we attracted came from within our twin flame union. If you possess a sense of self-management and have no unresolved energies within that attract outside forces, nothing can control you. Johny was under increasing pressure to be in the spotlight and reveal all of his past grievances.

Due to his upbringing of being programmed to lie as a child and being told this was necessary for his survival, overcoming his adverse upbringing was quite challenging for him. As a young boy, a series of destructive patterns and habits were formed, and these actions solidified his false beliefs about normalcy, love, discipline, and general life. As I was, he was brought up at a very low level of consciousness. His Colombian roots, rooted in hopelessness, and American upbringing, rooted in arrogance and entitlement, along with his addiction to fame, drove him so far from the man that he was meant to be. I have been deeply influenced by the Saskatchewan region of Canada, which in many ways is stuck in the old ways, ignorant, as well as being extremely passive-aggressive. Societal norms contribute greatly to our imbalances as we accept incomplete, backward, and harmful ideas about human experiences. Through the experience of this journey and those who have shown themselves by their actions, it is apparent that my mother's willingness and desire to truly experience motherhood was the drive that led to my ability to stand up for myself and my family as a whole in the breaking of unhealthy family patterns and ancestral trauma.

The parallels we began to draw between my upbringing and Johny's were astounding. A new revelation emerged regarding what a soul family is, the connection with our soulmates, the collection of fragments of our souls/cells, and the overall mission of healing the hole in original consciousness that prevents light and dark, electromagnetic energies from cocreating and healing in a conscious union.

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Spoonful Of Self-Awareness Part VII

Spoonful Of Self-Awareness Part VII

Sadly, the heavy infiltration and investment into our lives played a significant role in my family's carbon monoxide accident in Mexico by attempting to manipulate us back into their control by lying about our grandparents' trust fund. Asserting we had to return to Canada and complete paperwork that had already been dealt with several times and there was no other alternative thereby completely jeopardizing our travel plans. We were in the process of putting together Johny's family, upbringing, and starting a retreat venture to bridge the gap between Johny and my bicoastal purposes, as we had been heavily guided in doing so. I believe my father wanted my mother and me back under his control and "in our place."

This meant never recognizing the talent, intelligence, beauty, and willingness we possess and how jealous he is of us. Alike attracts alike, and he used fake energy and that's what he was met with. We were far from fake, exhibiting very real raw emotions he could not comprehend or handle. Like many others, he rejected and demeaned our true emotions and fell prey to manipulating, sneaky fake energy, instead of caring for what is right, true, and aligned. My eldest brother was the first to question the long and drawn out four-year process in which no lawyers were involved and the father-aunt pair attempted to get what they wanted out of my grandmother's will. It is clear now that their objective is to steal and hoard, concealing their motives. My eldest brother of mine was displaying signs of more serious mental disorders at the time, and this was used to negate the questioning of the actions being taken against the will. Various excuses were given as to why things were taking so long. As a result, we were manipulated into signing away the rights to the land that our grandparents owned and had oil rights to. The amount of land, the amount of money, and the truth about our family history on our father's side have been kept under wraps.

We grew up with our mother as the primary figure and our father very absent with visits every other holiday with extended family. We were not familiar with our father's side of the family. There was, in truth, little interest in him, since that is what he offered to us. I found it particularly difficult to relate to most of them, where technology, video games, and warfare games were my brother's escapism, and these family members supported and encouraged as they too had an interest. The home was devoid of imagination and nature, and as a young girl I felt neglected by this side of the family and that they were strangers. When my business started to show success as a young adult and my name became more widespread as a healer, they began to consider me as an interest keyword. My brothers' mental health imbalances are the direct result of what is happening within our core family and the larger battle between the light and dark forces within. We know this is not a coincidence. Having been raised differently from myself, my brothers had a mother who did everything for them, including thinking for them. When I was a child, my mother always made me clean up after myself, taught me responsibility and respect, and scolded me and disciplined me. Fundamentally, they ruled the house and she believed every lie they told her specifically about me, of which there were many. In contrast, I had strong emotions, I cared, I cared about things, I wanted to learn, I wanted to live, and that energy was what my mother could relate to, that she could work with.

In the MANtality of raising boys to be men, tough and emotionless, the providers, women's feelings are given more importance than men. And as a woman, just as the magnetic principle, we carry more pure water/earth which grounds and allows us to feel more deeply. In their male form, they carry more of the feminine principle which is the air/fire which allows them to see the bigger picture more readily. Therefore, we need to learn how to understand, work with, and balance these main bipolar forces into a dynamic team within us to create self-awareness, and from there we will be able to better understand what is needed to maintain balance amongst the opposing and attracting elements outside of ourselves, and in relationships. Whenever we are in the realm of energy, we are capable of healing it, and all we need to do is to be willing to see/feel it in order for it to shift. An alternative to cutting, numbing, freezing, disconnecting, etc., mutilating parts of the cell, atom, or body, which is very detrimental and lacking in knowledge. As we become aware of the roots, pull out the weeds, nourish the soil, hydrate the water, ignite the fire, and give the seed/intention/air what it needs so that you can feel good, accept, and understand it. The mutation of our physical body, for example, occurs when we don't get to the root of the problem in the air, we just deal with it superficially in the physical earth. Leaving aside all the contributing energies; ideas, thoughts, feelings, and actions that contributed to the development of the physical illness/health issue or the rejection of one's own body part, gender and sexuality. We must be willing to examine this more closely.

Why do so many individuals avoid, or opt for, quick and easy solutions? In order to avoid taking responsibility, to avoid seeing the ugly, to avoid trauma, these are all manifestations of avoiding our truth plus our emotions^^^ the subtler feelings. This is what 99% of our family members are currently doing. As for the 1% of my mother who left us too stranded in a psychotic state, she was trapped in lies from her parents, siblings, and my father, thereby locking her in a false reality. Upon reflection, she realizes that this was only possible because she was running and avoiding. At this point, she had experienced some healing, however, as we neared the heavier traumas, she began to get heavily triggered and her persona would shift drastically in which the ice queen would emerge. Considering what she experienced was vile, it makes sense that the traumatized child would keep running from facing her past, her decisions in full, and facing the things that brought her shame and embarrassment, things she wanted to avoid dealing with. As her mother had done, she too continued in that tradition. As my mother begged for the truth, my grandmother took it to her grave. Holding on to someone's truth, story, or actual experiences is like suffocating and killing them. In the absence of AIR, a cell cannot charge or heal. The proper air must be present in order to create the appropriate fire, water, and earth. In essence, it is a chain reaction. If you leave out facts in order to manipulate a story, experience, or someone, you are distorting energy and skewing elements. If all intentions, thoughts, feelings, and actions are not disclosed, there are some missing factors. This results in a serious imbalance.

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