Spoonful of Self-Awareness Part IV

Spoonful of Self-Awareness Part IV

Nothing felt real*** keyword lasting, no sense of significance. As OG consciousness amplified its air/idea with a thought/fire and desire/water, magnetic and electric energies began to converge or, bluntly speaking, got it on. The elements grew bigger as the intention grew with fire (will) and water (want). The result was the Big Bang! During this intense process, parts of the magnetic and parts of the electric were damaged, distorted, and some were blasted far from where they originated into the void. Understanding why this happened to these pieces of the pie is the first step in understanding our own rejection, avoidance, suppression, separation, + skewing of our own elements.

In the course of time, the light and dark became increasingly aware of each other. Due to their very different aspects, confusion and fear were sparked as they were unable to comprehend each other. Feminine, electric so bright, so light, while masculine, magnetic so intense, so powerful causing hesitation. Having said that, there were undeniable forces and urges pulling these two bipolar energies together. As the electron pulls in, the matter acts in response to the ideas and thoughts of the mind, the proton is pushing out. Cause and effect, the law of attraction. The nucleus of a cell is where the spirit of the cell resides, the big O8. Think of the neutral nucleus. The spirit must be neutral in understanding and connecting to its feminine and masculine principles in order for our systems to function optimally. Electrons represent the X chromosome carrying a negative charge, while protons represent the Y chromosome carrying a positive charge. Thus the name OXYgen. Words have amazing power. We must learn how to view them as the energy behind what they are referring to in a given circumstance.

It is at this level of energetic awareness that we are able to remain in a state of neutrality, which is necessary to maintain the equilibrium of our atoms and ions. Each atom contains an equal number of protons and electrons. Due to the fact that protons and electrons have equal and opposite charges, atoms are neutral in their overall nature. However, instead of learning the other qualities and quantities, mind and matter remained in separation because the parts of the cell/atom that were damaged and dimmed during creation have not yet been reassembled and healed. Now, both halves are required to undergo their own personal journeys of learning about their elements, expanding their awareness, and becoming a whole half so that they can reconnect. We, therefore, come up with the concept of soulmates and relationships, and ultimately the adventure of finding our other half. We are on a journey of healing and connecting the four elements and their internal energies, the magnetic and electric, to oneness. The O8 represents both the feminine and the masculine elements. A force of electric and magnetic attraction exists within each element, just as there is light in dark and dark in light.

Each of the elements (fire, air, water, and earth) possesses magnetic/electric properties. These qualities of our being are exactly what we begin to falsely label, distort, and dim. We take the air out of the fire, which means we have no truth in our thinking. Water is taken from the earth, dimming the impact of our actions. This is some of the methods by which the magnetic and electric principles have been manipulated by and mutilated by one another rather than working together to share energy and balance one another. The feminine can share some of your ideas and the masculine can share some of your feelings, and together we can achieve harmony. In the event that this same understanding were to be brought to every individual, our entire societal structures would be altered. As a result, authority and control would no longer be needed, but rather management of the individual selves in connection with the collective. The only rules that matter are the laws of energy, which are the laws of matter/substance and relate to us. Almost every rule and regulation imposed by an external force is here to prevent our race and species from awakening into our own inherent power and raising the vibration of our planet and collective. The forces of nature are all that we need, and this belief - when combined with aligned action - has the power to bring anything into existence.

Due to the avoidance and arrogance that we inherited from our father, my brothers adapted his belief systems regarding women as objects, whores, and useless. In my experience, the only female my father has given importance to is his younger sister who can be an extremely manipulative, controlling individual who has invested heavily in sabotaging his own self, the family he tried to establish, his relationships, and then interfering with my relationship with my siblings and then finally my own relationship with Johny and our children. Throughout the years, she has been a dark hole in my family, envious of my mother and taking any opportunity to discredit her as a woman, mother, and wife. In choosing the fake over the real, my father has been led by his own damaged matter, disconnected from the real psyche. Through his inability to heal from his upbringing, his denial of his real family, and his ability to convince himself that his very ill actions are rational, he has allowed his own mental illness to go unhealed.

Spoonful of Self-Awareness Part III

Spoonful of Self-Awareness Part III

As a consequence of these bipolar energies competing rather than co-creating and the commitment to maintaining a barrier between the magnetic and electric principles, we are all susceptible to falling into bipolar habits, relationships, and ways of being. You create a mask or a persona when you bend and mould to fit in with the people around you instead of standing firmly in your beliefs and morals.

Many individuals have many personas, including the face, they wear at work, the face they show their parents, the face they show their partner, the face they wear with their friends and the faces that emerge when they are under the influence of drugs and alcohol. There is a need to have one face, four elements that blend their masculine and feminine principles, that are all the same age, and that also have the same values, definitions, and belief systems. Our major problem as a race, affecting the planet and our entire social structures, is that many do not. Throughout our lives, our cells and their elements are separated and disjointed, causing severe damage to our mainframe, which functions as a unit. We live in a society where compartmentalizing, small talk, and multi-tasking is all set to control, separate and further disconnect cells from the bigger picture and their ability to take charge of emotions and physical responses to the lessons and experiences evoked for growth. Being composed of four basic elements, we must understand our senses in order to make sense of our bodies. All four elements possess both feminine and masculine characteristics. When these bipolar energies within us do not work together, they create a knot in the flow of naturally occurring energies that negatively impact the functioning of our systems.

It has become quite evident to my mother and me since we have spent the last year looking more deeply into the nitty-gritty of our unhealthy family patterns, ancestral trauma, and generational patterns. Taking into consideration both of our childhoods, it becomes clear that the parenting the males received was very different from the parenting that the females experienced. Males and females are given different rules and expectations due to their gender, completely disregarding the divine feminine and masculine principles in both genders require nurturing, experiences, honouring, and understanding. I believe that it was my brothers' ability to manipulate and overpower my mother's authority that caused her to give up or give in to their false ideas and thoughts. My mother was constantly met with lazy, excuse-ridden, rejecting peter pan boys who seemed to be more interested in playing virtual games than living a real-life and enhancing their self-esteem and self-worth by establishing real relationships, trying new things, and putting themselves out in the world. As a young girl, I felt so envious of families that appeared to love each other and get along play, travel, and laugh together. That's why my mother created a fantasy of what her childhood was actually like, a coping mechanism that is imbalanced, as we don't learn how to deal with and process emotions in the Western Hemisphere.

We are guided by our emotions; however, our emotions can become distorted, imbalanced, and mislabeled. Emotions are represented by the element water, our feelings, and our relationships with ourselves and with all of our cells. As they are denser in vibration, they are felt more intensely than ideas or thoughts. It is also why so many run from, avoid, try to numb, disconnect, suppress, or sever themselves from their emotional feelings. These feelings become "too much" for one to handle/manage. If our emotions are not well maintained and cared for on a moment-to-moment basis, our emotional junk drawers can fill up and we may become very overwhelmed very easily, or very triggered/reactive, easily agitated, or the opposite weighed down, heavy, and depressed. Emotions require momentum, a constant flow of information as well as a profound understanding of where they originate. In order to create emotions, we first form an idea that generates thoughts that trigger/build feelings around an event, an action, or an aspect of ourselves. As soon as we are willing to become aware of the underlying idea that is triggering or creating this emotion, we can work on resolving it appropriately. Our energies in motion, called e-motions, serve as our inner guides, like a GPS, guiding us in the right direction when we speak their language, or frequency.

The cells in our bodies are intelligent, we just have to allow them to show us what they are capable of while removing all the false programming that interferes with the flow and function of the cells. Emotions carry a great deal of water and earth, together constituting the magnetic principle. Our thoughts carry a great deal of the electric principle, which is composed of air and fire elements. Unless these bipolar energies are understood, they will cause quite a calamity within our mind (idea, thought), and matter (feeling, action). There are many ways in which the battle between light and dark has manifested in our current universe. We are faced with racism, gender inequality, cultural appropriation, among other issues. Separation and compartmentalization of our four basic elements are results of a competition and comparison between our feminine and masculine principles. We as a collective consciousness continue to repeat history in avoiding the healing of mass imbalances within our sphere of influence. There continue to be war, famine, economic hardship, and plagues in the present day. Do we not learn from our past? Have we failed to see how obvious societal control is? Wake up, humans. Preserve your cells from the imbalances that are emanating from within as electric and magnetic forces continue to fight until we, as individuals - fragments of original consciousness - learn about love and life, to evolve and grow back into wholeness.

A representation of this wholeness is oxygen, designated by the atomic symbol O8. The great 8, the spirit of infinity. Oxygen contains the components required for the creation of the X and Y chromosomes. For evolution to take place, procreation is crucial, just as the proton is essential to the giving/pushing out of our purest ideas and thoughts. The learning of the structure and function of the atom, the cell, and human behavior leads to an in-depth study of the building blocks of life, where all of us should begin, the beginning, the air, the idea, the belief, the story, the seed, the intention, and the spirit. It was the intention of the original consciousness to split into duality for the purpose of having a playmate since it was lonely and wished to experience more than its current daydream-like state.

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