Honouring my Aquarius ( Beauty, Love, Unity )
When I started taking on clients for yoga and Reiki, I was completely unaware of the Alice in Wonderland hole I was about to enter. The inner workings of so many and their families, relationships with self and others, family dynamics, family patterns and beliefs, and religious practices to name just a few. With only my imagination, a very limited and capped view infiltrated by heavy amounts of toxic energy from unaligned food/beverages, elements, lifestyles, ideologies, and people who didn't understand my or their own very sensitive emotional nature. I had my family to study and create theories about what love and life should look like—observing the operation and behaviour of other families constantly like Harriet the Spy ( also, a fav from my childhood ).
I grew up in divorced homes with naive parents, aunts/uncles, and grandparents who were mentally unstable and controlling. Other family members, peers to name a few invested a lot of time and effort in controlling our narrative, finances, worth, and perception of our situation and family dynamics. It will surprise many people to learn that I had never aimed to become a life coach or spiritual mentor. Initially, I had to reverse my own declining health as well as look for my purpose in life. I was relieved and surprised when they went together. This is not something we are taught in our society. Separate, compartmentalization, and multitasking are promoted and celebrated while understanding, processing, and taking responsibility are left out. Moreover, it is totally misunderstood and misdefined. Trying to fit into a box, finding a category, a city, and sticking to it was the sold idea of success! There were several times that I tried to reduce myself to a fraction of who I was. As a child, I wanted to be a teacher like my grandma. I would play educator with my cousins/friends at our play desk imitating previous teachers. My next thought was to do hair styling, just like I always have done when I assist friends with their updos for dances and create makeovers. Fast forward to my early 20s and I was working in a salon and spa where I soon found out I didn’t like the environment. Too many bitchy women with too many opinions thinking* they were helping. ( please hold the pitchforks stylists, this was my attracted experience, and I’m not coming for you as an individual )
Okay, that’s just a hobby, let’s move on. Office management and administration, no you just love working with technology, organizing, and delegating, okay, now let's talk about fashion. You love clothes, styling yourself, putting together looks for others, perhaps blogging, styling, and merchandising. That would be fun, but there was still something missing. I feel right at home with yoga, meditation, and Reiki because you remind me of my decades of coaching and competing in gymnastics, dance, and cheerleading. Personal training is in my blood. When I was in my mother’s belly, she attended aerobics group classes and pumped it out! I've watched her walk, kick-box, exercise, lift weights, stretch and study nutrition all my life. Reflecting upon my life, I find all of these parts to be present in my life, but it took a while for me to recollect some, to add in others, and to maintain all of them in order for me to feel whole in my personality and purpose. I was able to identify ingredients, hobbies, and facets of expression that made me feel whole or more like myself. Moreover, as I develop and grow, more layers of my personality will be explored and more aspects of exploration will be added, as exploration is what keeps us going, flowing, growing, and fueling our lives.
Hey, universe, let's continue to give and receive energy and your mind and matter will respond to the message that you send. As for the latter, hey universe I am done, it is time for me to retire, I am no longer willing to give of myself in this way, I do not long for anything new, and that is when the decay or decline process begins. As a result, we let go of our will. As such, this stands for the same individuals who are unwilling to participate in any situation or claim they are unable to do so. In the presence of willpower, there is a way. When one remains open and willing to continue evolving and expanding, naturally the phases of the ages will look different, but one must remain focused on being present and engaged in the human experience, engaging with the evolutionary journey, passing down your wisdom, traditions, stories to the younger generation while allowing them to evolve your understanding of technology and life.
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