Spoonful of Stacey - Self-Worth Part V

My extensive study of the experience has allowed all emotions based on fear and love to rise to the surface. Even though I look small and have a small frame, I am capable of doing serious damage. This actually scared me, as I was constantly challenged by my two older brothers, who regardless of their behaviour in public and social settings, acted completely differently at home. It was also very evident to us that we adopted a completely different set of values and morals from our highly sensitive mother. Norms and beliefs held by our peers and that of society in all spheres were mmm proved wrong by those of our mother's pudding. Would this remove the trauma of our generation, the media outlets, and the societal programming we have grown up with? Unfortunately, nope, we are all suffering from the unconscious understanding of human nature, and several have taken deep plunges into very dense realities due to a lack of self-care and the ability to shake up the rigid roots and egoic past pursuits that are so commonly manifested unconsciously.

We don't all come out of a movie with the same experience, do we? As a result of our parents' divorces, we were devalued and treated like shit by grandparents, parents, cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, etc. on both sides of the family. Imagine if John Lennon had never picked up a musical instrument how different his life would have been, and this same idea ( air ) is what drove my mother so far from her true self. The eighth extension to her mother's line and treated as an adopted child by her siblings, she was used and abused like a rag doll in very violent and traumatizing ways, allowing her to lose any perception of love, loyalty, and relationships. Every time mycellves fell and climbed, they had to keep swimming and standing back up. I learned this from my mother.

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