As a result of Johny's 24/7 life coaching and the several family members who have been added to my life since Johny's arrival, my brain was taking a beating. After experiencing severe heart pain at her job working in the hosPITal and realizing that her job was not just killing her, but playing a major role in the murder, mutilation, control, corruption, capping, and severance of our cells and their structures, my mother moved in with us. Therefore, PIT is emphasized: it will keep you stuck in a rut, a rut where you will always rely on external assistance, pressure, and help rather than connecting back to your real energy source and developing your own ideas, thoughts, feelings, actions, and understanding of healing. This idea and the necessity of these institutions would be dramatically altered if we understood ourselves, our nature, our atoms, and the purpose behind our creation as a race at their core. We are provided with everything we need by our planet and collective. All that is needed is for us to remember how and ignite the dormant and disconnected RNA and DNA within us.

It is harmful to your health and evolutionary process to believe that institutions, jobs, and relationships that are based on fear/false energy are beneficial. The notion that we need anything other than our own genetic make-up and vast cellular structures in order to shift imbalanced situations, regardless of their manifestation in your life, spiritual, mental, emotional, physical, and everything in between, is the problem. When you learn how to manage and maintain your vibration, worth, value, core, morals, and foundations, you will shift what you resonate with and attract. I was doing my part to keep up my self-care while giving of myself now at all times as our home became open for those family members to heal and our business with clientele was put on hold as all our time and energy was being used and abused by those who claimed they wanted to change in their life and were constantly relying on and lying to us throughout the healing process. What was Johny carrying? How did I attract all of this to myself? SELF-RESPONSIBILITY always! It keeps me from giving my power away, and at the end of the day, it was my choice to give of myself in this way. What was being brought to my attention? We began attracting and pulling in all the versions of ourCELLVes that still required our attentION. Healing the fragments of our soul is necessary for us to truly become each other's counterparts.

My obsession with truth and their rejection of it played a huge part in our attracted experiences during my pregnancy with Pax. I didn't fully comprehend the intensity behind that contract when I channelled the birth of Pax as another expansion into the void. The purpose of this expansion was to collect more traumatized pieces of myself, cells, and a greater picture of original consciousness. With the individuals working the closest with me all lying to me about the actions they had taken towards me, situations became dicey as we entered lower fear-based dimensions as a result of the skewed and contradictory behaviour. Specifically, Johny, his mother, my eldest brother, my best friend at the time Erica, my Mother, and the few childhood friends I still allowed in were not willing to own what they had done to me. As the healings surfaced layers of past healings surfaced. As obvious ownership was being demanded, they chose to lie, which was against their better judgment and to the detriment of energy. This led us very far afield as a result. Self-responsibility has always been my motto and what has kept me in charge. So I ask myself why I would attract this. What is healing within? Answers always lead to the earliest belief systems created during evolution. Due to the ice age, the self holds the belief that it does not deserve to exist.

The lack of trust is a result of its experience as a Lyran. Interested in learning more about Lyrans? During the evolution of consciousness, it was an entire race, from another planet, on another dimension, and part of our cellular structure. As a result of preexisting cells spawning new ones, we are carrying a past down belief that we are unworthy of existence, thus creating a self-destructive cell. It is the events that have taken place in the learning, growing, and evolving of duality; magnetic and electric principles that require our research and healing in order to bring balance and equality amongst the elements and biploar energies. In other words, it is as if you have a ticking time bomb inside of you which slowly deteriorates your health. Very insidious. There has been heavy guidance to heal large parts of our Egyptian ancestry and lineages, particularly those of Amun, Ra, Osiris, Isis, Nephthys, and Set. Ra and Amun, Get and Nut representing the divine Mother and Father aka Masculine and Feminine principles.

The four figures in Egyptian history Osiris, Isis, Nephthys, and Set represent all the four elements aka eXpansIONS of Amun + Ra (the feminine + masculine archetypes). A true sense of human experiences can be gained through studying their stories and connecting them to what we are currently experiencing. In addition to the connections to Zeus, Hercules, Apollo and Artemis to name a few, all of these major archetypes, gods, goddesses, and titans are required for higher education and learning universal wisdom. We have travelled deep into the mythology and history of the Norse, Roman, Hindu, Celtic, Japanese, Chinese, African, Australian, and Native American to name a few. We need to replace the brainwashing of programmed false information from schools and institutions in which we are forced to memorize fake information with real infourmation*( air, fire, water, + earth ) about our history. In this manner, we are taught how to connect to our cells, how to communicate with our cells and begin to reconnect to our memories. In addition, we are taught how to download through our subconscious our history. This would result in cell memory being retained rather than reprogramming them with fake information; ideas, thoughts, feelings, and actions.

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It was difficult for Johny and I to maintain a healthy relationship due to our mothers' and fathers' need for us to need them in unhealthy ways. Although my mother was slightly more supportive and understanding, she had a deep, unhealed subconscious that manifested very skewed energy towards us, resulting in betrayal and severe backstabbing. At times, her unwillingness to address her traumas, along with her level of avoidance and stubbornness, combined into a large block of boulders in the middle of the highway. During our relationship, Johny's mother acted as if she supported us but in reality, there were multiple attempts to sow seeds of doubt along with numerous incidents that revealed the contrary, resulting in severe backstabbing, lies and betrayals. She then attempted to manipulate him to restore her to her position in his life. It was revealed that there was a very skewed and unhealthy relationship between the mother and son as she treated him more like a brother or partner than she did as her child or son. We live in a time when the "need to be needed" is a very prevalent belief system that affects all of humanity. Air and earth are both representatives of our needs, as are our ideas and actions. The binary code 1,0 is the basis for our needs, which are carried out by our cosmic computers. The 1 represents the earth, the matter, and the 0 represents the air, the spirit.

If individuals do not produce their own energy, they will have to rely on a host for energy. Consequently, the other entity would have to give up its power and become a source of energy. As a result of this statement, we are able to observe that the importance placed on the future of mankind has been drastically diminished, and we need to re-evaluate the importance of providing our cells with the highest possible information and techniques to think and create for themselves. In order to accomplish this, FEELINGS are necessary! This is what I have repeatedly discussed, and what so many people are running from rather than managing the energies present. In reality, the idea that numbing out, disconnecting, lying, severing, or self-convincing our feelings, our water, and our emotions is easier is a phenomenon which creates a harsher, lack-lustre journey, and is extremely demeaning and dishonouring to your own abilities and self-esteem. Many cells have been infected with false emotions and the real emotions have been removed from the majority of them. We have become so skewed and incorrect in the labelling of our emotions. In the course of life, one can become extremely desensitized to what they are feeling. This is because they have been numbed, suppressed, and severed as a result of not being consciously aware of what they are feeling. It is possible for parts of us to become enmeshed in traumas, to be given away, to be stolen, to become lost and damaged.

I'm getting a lot clearer about my and Johnny's union and soul family as I continue to learn about the events of the last four years. We've understood the gravity of what happened during our trip. This is specifically the traumas that happened in Colombia, Mexico, and LA. Before Lux was born, I took on the role of a 24/7 life coach to catch Johny up on my level of understanding energy. I also caught up on the amount of healing I had already done. He created a world where everyone catered to him. To gain praise and feed off of it, he surrounded himself with less conscious versions of himself. The man turned life into a vile video game and used and abused anyone who crossed his sneaky spider web, using blame, pity, and a childlike mentality. Due to his very sensitive self and vivid imagination, he would create a world in his mind that he would actually see playing out in what he thought was physical form. Those with a higher level of consciousness would understand that it is simply a daydream composed of thoughts and ideas without any tangible water, feelings, substance, or source. It's not real, because what's not made from real ideas is not genuine energy, so it's fake like a mirage. Some people give so much weight and value to these false mirages that they start feeling real. It's when we give it weight, our energy, that we let the false feeling overtake the genuine feeling.

We have entire realities, societal structures and institutions created off fake energy. For example, hospitals, churches, and the government are just a few of the major players. We can construct fake relationships, homes, and businesses with this fake energy. This has been done. As long as they are given weight, worth, and value, their presence will endure. As such, it can be very dangerous and tricky to eliminate fear and false beliefs from our minds. Therefore, we must use a strong sense of discernment when reinitiating our own sensitivities and connections to our own cells. The entire society must be reset in order to remove all brainwashing and false applications from the brain. The ability to see things from a different perspective will be achieved by shifting our perspective. There are quite literally physical glitches that can be observed. For the purpose of bringing this whole process full circle, Johny literally lived in a daydream. Without drugs or alcohol, he was able to disconnect from reality and lose himself in a state of daydreaming. In this state, he felt as though he was experiencing life, but in reality, nothing had changed. In many ways, this was very similar to the behaviour of my eldest brother Tyler around the same time that Johny entered our lives. What the f do you say... My brother and my husband are related in the soul family. I will explain everything in the appropriate time frame, so please bear with me.

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